My name is Mostafa, I'm a musician/graphic-designer. This is my very own-personal-blog.
• The Monumental Gaze.
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innocent.
Perched through,
Bring what’s left-off.
Dive myself into nothingness.
It always trips my mind being sane.
re:observe
observe this,
observe that,
revolve around this
nothing yet.
when did you choke
on your breath
becoming nothing to be
a transformation of your being.
of your conscious and everything that is your surrounding.
everyone and each individual,
indifference is what makes them part of this plan.
merging and unmerging coherently in time
dispersed through space in rhyme.
resolving and dissolving fragments of tides.
been put together by the moon and the sky.
This thinker’s tired, is in fact an observer in disguise
and a creator inside his own mind.
observe this
observe that.
Surrounding: unknown.
Stood inside,
just a creature inhabiting an unknown-surrounding.
Purged memories, overwhelmed by the serious amount of breeze.
Mutated head-tilts, and conversations taking place outside their figures.
Voiceless they seem to be with words.
and so clueless, not caring about the weather.
Out of shape, I never mean to choke while breathing.
Void stuff, inside each and every being. Void stuff, brought us into being. When time runs out, I can’t trust my imagination, becoming lost in reality with nothing to give. There’s nothing to feed my thoughts, when I have nothing to skip reality with. -imagination.
In the figure of air, I never mean to choke while breathing.
by the stream,
floating into darkness and back again
All thoughts are water that ripples asymmetrically.
simple and quiet,
simple and quiet,
our life used to be-
face-less we tend to get-
with a fake smile on loose.
Light and darkness are one and the same, but we fail to fathom such thing.
Motionless motion would be without void.
They each compliment one another
Motionless motion would be without void.
They each co-exist within each other
and without nothingness all matter is lost.
and all thoughts would transform back to nothing.
In reach,
Out of reach
The nothingness of life - so enormous to speak of.
Out of your bodies,
You still think you could levitate,
But inside your head where only such thing transpires
- high on gravity.
Inside your head, where everything happens to exist.
We’re all some sort of energy, adjusted to certain frequencies
through every happening; throughout every thought and action.
that’s what makes up for everything, where it once were nothing.
- it was wasn’t.
artwork by: xenia elizabeth
{ s p a c e d }
Folks,
I’ve been away from writing my daily experiences for such a long time. I feel as if I’m sort of un-plugged from this vast universe of discourse I’m usually connected to, and placed inside a labyrinth of apathy and sluggishness. I think it all started when I lost all my data on my external HDD, almost 320 GB worth of material; raw recordings, photography, books, art, etc. So, I kinda lost the platform that connects me with the outside world, and the urge to do something. But, at some point I had to row against the tides of these feelings and surf those weary waves. Besides, there was a lot of signs that told me to move on, whether I’d be able to recover the loss or not. (totally out of line: Speaking of surfing, I’m going to learn kite-surfing most certainly next summer, or luckily next midterm vacation).
So this was the kind of drama I’ve went through, which started weeks ago. A lot of great things happened during the time span of these events though. It’s somehow overwhelming how many great things could happen to you and then a certain disaster happens and destroys them all. But, let’s say that I saw it coming. First of all, I was accepted to be one of the MUN’ Innovation Committee OC Members, which is something that I’m still excited about until this very day. Before that, I was contacted from a publishing house in the Netherlands, asking me if they can use one of my artwork as a Book Cover, but then unfortunately the head of their organization didn’t accept it for some reason which I don’t quite know till now. Secondly, I bought my first BlackBerry, which I’m still torn in between the thought of it being a bad thing or a useful tool. Besides, There’s this sarcastic rant of Jerry Sienfeld that keeps repeating in my head. “BlackBerry People, heh.” So looking all over the things that happened from a different perspective somehow made me recall a certain remembrance which from I’ve observed that everything happens for a reason ~ it’s a true saying.
ps: I just want to say, before I end this post, that whatever stops you from your journey towards inspiration or from the thing you’re meant to be doing is obviously an obstacle that sometimes we can vaguely see due to our apathy and or our state of indifference.
pps: I’m writing this while working on my first report that I’m supposed to give out tomorrow, plus a second report which I know nothing about. at all. so I think I’m going to kill myself tonight.
Love and lots of light, - MA.
Forces.
You can take yourself to higher grounds
and levitate through the fields of gold
but still you’re resided by the older bounds
Transcending memories, there’s still a room in your bones
It takes more than praying
to make a wish come true
There are forces laid down symmetrically
portrayed as the space in-between our souls
You may build a ladder to the stars
and reach far into their meaning,
But still there are far more secrets afar
from you, they are still keeping
It takes more than praying
to make your wish come true
There are forces laid down symmetrically
portrayed as the space in-between our souls
So take the hurricane from our hands,
And observe the oceans that run through our eyes
There’s always a room for curtains to be drawn
-and shadows to be implied.
There’s always a room for forces to be foregone
-with an energy inside.
Parting Waters [New Album] [UPDATE]
[UPDATE]
Due to change of heart, I decided that I’m going to postpone Parting Waters to a different point in time-in the near future. Right now, I have a whole lot of life before me; my studies got lots of quizzes assignments and so. Nevertheless, I’m somehow going to cope with the present-situation and complete recording some drones. I really hate to announce something that’s going to take place in the near future, but heh.
Those are the tracks so far.
1. The Passing Train
2. …of Stars
3. Ghosts
4. Are We Misplaced
5. Symphony for the Poor
6. [?]
7. [?]You could listen to the first two tracks over at my Soundcloud. [Probably they’re an overview of how the album would be like, and somehow demos]
The album would probably be released around Christmas. Still not sure about the name yet.
You could also listen to Unidimensional over at myspace.
I’ve been recording some stuff the past few days, mostly drones. I’ve been around more organic sounds by this time, which I think they’re gonna be more stripped down than Unidimensional, which was my first trial of recording an album and I didn’t like it that much. I’m not sure about the release date yet, but I’m planning for 11-tracks, It’s gonna take sometime, I’m going to try out different softwares and interfaces for mixing and mastering.
The album is gonna be released with a PDF full of some ranting thoughts, and wonders.
You can hear a Demo track from the recordings.
My first album. [Deciphering Stars - Unidimensional]
I’ve been spending my time with music more than usual this summer, if someone else he/she would thought that I’m spending it with my spouse. Well, I don’t have a spouse and I’m not planning to go through anything in the near future.
Finally, I was able to put the final touches on my first album which I did put out on the internet on 21st Sept. I really liked the sounds on this album, it somehow took me some time to set the bar higher for new sounds to come in. The thing is the tracks were kinda long, but not too much going on in there, which rendered me uncertain about some tracks, but it was my first experience to record an album and I’m quite pleased with it. The idea of playing a live show won’t come to mind, I don’t know why. Although, some of my friends offered to join if I’m going to play a live show, but I still need to collect a whole lot of gear; pedals, synthesizers to be able to perform one of the tracks. Right now I’m busy recording some new stuff, and I think I’d better invest my free time in recording rather than playing a live show, which I’m not quite ready.
The album tracks are between [Experimental], [Post-rock], [Shoegaze], [Ambient] and [Drone].
You can listen/download the album @ Bandcamp
